An Angel's Perspective
As I become more empathic, I am tuning in to nature. It's the animals in my life who uplift and sustain me even in their final earthly breaths.
Spending the traditional Easter holiday in the company of exotic animals, I discovered the serenity I had been searching for - unsuccessfully - through my connections with people. People, in my life, love to unload their baggage at my train stop. Navigating the toppling piles of luggage and boxes
results in my tripping and falling my way to the next train. Sometimes, I miss my connection and am stranded in the chaos.
But why? Habit.
I am and always have been a "fixer". I love that my life is organized and have been more than willing
to extend my skills to the less orderly people in my peripheral view of the world. Sometimes they are grateful. Sometimes the agitation in their bewildered expressions sends me back to minding my own business. Not usually discouraged, I wait and end up doing it my way anyway.
Is that wrong? I hardly stop to consider.
Everyone is entitled to using their own toolbox to fix their life. It's just when my life is affected, that I become unraveled.
The animals don't plan. They adjust and move on. I watched a lion pace, with each paw deliberately placed upon the ground. He stood solidly for the second it took for him to lift another paw. He was assured of his position. He stood his ground.
Elephants ate with deliberate intention. No need for thinking about it. No conversation between them.
The anteater scavenged, carving a path against the enclosure. It changed direction twice to take
refuge in its three-sided enclosure.
A solitary Bengal tiger's attention was drawn to something on the other side of its habitat. I tried to
send a silent message that I was there. She knew it, and tossed me a glance as if to say, "I'm distracted."
The breathing in and exhaling out went unnoticed by me even in the moments of changed elevation where I followed the path up the incline to another exhibit. I didn't even think about it. Normally,
my knees would have given me a shout out.
I changed in the hours I was there. I will try to be less human in the future. It seems the
wiser choice. I am not the top of the food chain. I am, however, a link to my destiny for whatever time I have left in this existence on planet Earth.
