I like the word "threshold". It's the perfect visual introduction to this story. Being a published poet, blogger, painter and pianist, I am always stepping through my comfort zone and trying something new. This time the something new is ages old.
Beyond the five senses there is a sixth-intuition. The debate surrounding it is familiar to most and is victim to religious interpretation. I have come to understand that the intuitive realm is the conduit
to universal wisdom and I'm standing in the shadow of the door frame.
Why I am here now is obvious. I am in denial of the me I know and the me you suspect you know.
Holiday traditions are waning only to remain in the conscious memory of who I was. I am beginning to hate the contradictions between my inside self and outside self. The pretense must give way
to a life of purpose.
For me, the holiday traditions were never a perfect fit. I understood the fairy tale quality of them at a very young age. Guessing that the ebb and flow of family gatherings relied heavily on the elders of my family, it was a natural progression right out of the obligatory celebrations when I was a single woman, void of responsibilities.
Crossing my path, again when I married and raised my family, those traditions resurfaced. Another generation indoctrinated. But I didn't know then what I know now.
That gut feeling is tied to survival. Survival in the communal sense of belonging and deciding whether I want to continue to belong to what is familiar. I don't think so. My journey has been redefined. I have questions. What if the individual is just the messenger? What if pre-destiny interrupts one's purpose? What if that little voice is tied to the infinite universal voice? Do I listen?
Free will and the reincarnate soul. Trusting that the convergence of messages will direct me,
I will continue to do and be who I thought I was to a lesser degree and meditate and network with those who are like minded.
My future is not here- which is not surprising; my past wasn't here either.
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